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2012

2011-12-28T10:22:00.001-08:00

Wonder what 2012 holds. I have to admit, 2011 seemed fraught with crisis for me personally (only a sprinkling of happy memories). Must embrace an attitude of gratitude and resolve to change some things physically, spiritually, emotionally and financially in the New Year. Praying God lends a helping hand and heaps of blessings for me and mine as well as you and yours!

Christmas Visit

2011-01-11T19:39:00.000-08:00

Had a great visit with my family in Nor Cal for Christmas. Missed my husband, who's truck broke down...but all in all it was fun. I still feel displaced though; like an old shoe or like an appendix. You know, once useful...now just there and obsolete, barely noticeable. All the kids and grandkids are growing and going their own ways. New lifestyles that I don't understand. Sigh. And, while most people look forward to an empty nest - I do not. It feels like a big empty hole in my heart. I pray and God offers peace, but the flesh is weak and I keep going back to the mind set of regret. So much I wish I could have done (or do) but no way to do it or be with them. So many responsibilities and so much of the ugliness of life getting in EVERYONE'S way. I wonder if I'm the only one who feels like this?

Deployment

2010-08-19T08:22:00.001-07:00

My son has been deployed to Afghanistan since March 27, 2010 and we are on the down side of this deployment. For those who have never experience a loved one in the military deployed to a combat zone - there are no words to describe what it's like for those at home on American soil. The worry, prayers, dealing with "river city" for OPSEC reasons, care packages and avoiding news media reports are a daily source of stress and trauma. I thank God for keeping my son safe and everytime he calls (which might be once every 4-6 weeks) I praise Him even louder! I'm proud that our sons and daughters are fighting for the freedom of others - as well as for OUR freedom. The old cliche says it appropriately "Freedom isn't free - there's a price to pay." God Bless you and keep you safe Joe. God Speed until you are home again with your family and friends.

Independence Day

2010-06-26T09:55:00.000-07:00

These are the 3 of my 4 children (well 5 if you include my stepson) that I will not be spending the 4th of July with. I miss them and love them and say special prayers daily for them...but Joe (in the plaid) is a Marine deployed to Afghanistan and I'm sending special thanks and prayers his way. Please remember how fortunate we are to be Americans and have the freedom and liberties that we have. It came at a costly price. Many have died for the name of freedom. God Bless the USA!

Lifestyle Change

2010-06-24T08:35:00.000-07:00

I started a diet or lifestyle change this week...which I really want to be in earnest but have been moody and depressed all week. The first three days were a total flop. Didn't exercise, didn't reduce calories or watch what I ate...now I have to lose 54 pounds instead of 52! I really need to do this for health and self esteem. Don't want to have to have stomach banding or anything like that because I want to learn self control, portion control, behavior modification.
For so many reasons (financial, lifestyle, lack of local support, stress, age, metabolism, genetics) it is going to be an uphill battle to say the least but I want to do this. I have to do this FOR ME. I can't afford weight watchers or any other program you have to pay for, can't join a gym or buy CDs to exercise to, don't have time to weigh, measure and pre prepare meals. So it makes it hard. Not impossible, but hard.
Praying for strength and willpower so the next four days will show a market improvement and a positive results.

Rich Mullins - We Are Not As Strong As We Think We Are (Wheaton College...

2010-06-21T20:08:00.000-07:00

Awesome God - Michael W. Smith

2010-06-20T12:51:00.000-07:00

Bring the rain

2010-06-18T18:56:00.000-07:00

Celine Dion - Because you loved me

2010-06-18T18:10:00.000-07:00

Parents of Deployed Service Members

2010-06-03T19:55:00.001-07:00

This is my son, a Marine deployed to Afghanistan. He's a young man at 20 years old, but the average age of service personnel is a young man of 19 (I'm not negating the women who serve - just stating statistics). I've always empathized and been supportive of our military; but it became a whole other ball game when my son enlisted. I have a new and vivid respect for the wives, families, friends and parents of our military personnel. Marine, Navy, Air Force, Army, Coast Guard, National Guard ... I get tears in my eyes just thinking about what their "job" really means. Someone once said that enlisted people write a blank check to the U.S. Government which could possibly mean they pay the ultimate sacrifice. How can you not be proud?! How can anyone actually protest who they are and what they do?
I have a nephew in the army, another enlisted in the Airforce, more friends in both branches and some in the Navy...new ones in the Marines and a long family heritage of service. Do the people who protest not have any one to "enlighten" them?
While I know God watches out for each and every one, I also know where they go if the check is presented for payment. Fallen angels they are called. Still, as a mother this possibility is VERY difficult to bear. Not that fathers, brothers, grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins, friends and brothers in arms don't share the burden - but I have to say, I'd rather stand on the front line in harms way then to think of even one person's son or daughter falling.
I praise the Heavenly Father for His mighty protection, His omnipotence, His omniscience and His omnipresence. I know that He is with my son every second of every day; just as He is with me giving me strength and faith to endure while my son is away. I look forward to welcoming my hero home and may God bring ALL of our heroes home safe and soon!

Predictions

2010-04-18T15:16:00.000-07:00

You know, there was a program about Nostradamus on TV last night, and how many if not all of his predictions are uncanny and accurate. Debate exists about whether or not he was a Christian. A lot of his predictions are not really "good" predictions. Gloom, doom, death and despair. Which, thanks to the media we get plenty of on a daily basis - thank you very much. And the more desperate the news, the more paper it sells. Welcome to reality TV! I don't watch the stuff. So, why do we watch Nostradamus or any other prophecy shows? Why are we so intrigued by fear and ugliness?

I find it difficult enough to get through life in my own little bubble and stages. Why do people thrive on the black and depressing? All of the predictions Jesus gave us in the bible, and not too many people want to dwell on those or espouse the virtues of living in God's realm. Truth be told, I get so caught up "in the flesh" that I don't walk the walk near as adequately or often as I should. Thank goodness our God is a loving, living, and forgiving God. PTL! But, what if in the next second "we're too late?" All these people I love and know haven't asked the Lord to be their Savior. Is eternal life really so hard to believe in? I don't think so. All you Darwin followers, if you can believe that - why can't you believe this? That mutating cell had to come from somewhere people!

But, I digress. My heart ponders the future when I watch such shows on TV. What will the world be like in 5, 10 or even 20 years when my children and grandchildren are going through these same "stages" of life? Will the world still be here? My mind can't even wrap around the thought. So much war, hate, destruction, disease...we have earthquakes, volcanoes, tsunamis and global warming. Abductions, murders, abuse. Divorce. Kids are subjected to adult realities far too early and the joys of youth are as vanishing as the early morning dew. My 10 year old granddaughters are showing signs of puberty. 10 years old!!! When I was 10, I was still playing with barbie dolls. It pains the heart.

Nostradamus had such grave predicitions about the U.S., about the war in the Middle East, about China being a new world power...and again, death and destruction. My son is over there in Afghanistan fighting for the U.S. so we can maintain our freedom and continue to be the greatest country on earth. My nephew and friends are in Iraq doing the same thing. It makes one want to take a sledge hammer to the TV. Who are these people that choose these shows? Do none of them have children? Is the god of this world so entrenched in that realm of life that we have no hope of ever regaining our foothold? Seriously, are we so greedy and distracted by wealth that we are numb to the dangers?

I say it's time we stand up, take up, put up and tell them to shut up for the sake of our nation and our people. We need to get up and pull ourselves up by the boot straps by looking up to the One who gave us everything and created everything. I'm up for that, are you?

Mid Life

2010-03-21T11:35:00.000-07:00

I guess I should be joyful about being in midlife...there are many things to be thankful for. At 51 years of age I am a Christian - saved by the blood of Christ and I know where I'm going when my vessel is done being used. I have been blessed with 4 children and a stepson, 4 grandchildren, a job, a home and fairly decent health. Not the greatest, but I'm not ill and for that I am most grateful. While it hasn't been an easy ride through life and I've had way too many trials, there are others who have endured far worse and still rejoice. His refining process can't be explained.
I'm thankful for each new day and the opportunity to do His will. Why then, is faith such a faltering thing? Why does worry, doubt and fear still consume the soul? Oh to sit at His feet, feel the beat of His heart and know the love and peace of God. It's overwhelming (like the song). Is it wrong to want Christ to return sooner rather then later? Is it weak to be tired and weary? Tears only cleanse my eyes and don't offer solace. Prayer brings temporary relief, until the flesh takes over its mundane daily tasks.
As I prepare to send my son off to war, I lay all the burdens I have at the foot of the cross. God is with him, just as He is with me and I trust Him to deliver my son from evil, to be his Protector and Defender, to love and guide him just as He does each of us. I give you ALL those who are dear to me Heavenly Father. I pray for ALL those serving in our military and the families that love them. Thank you for all that you are Father and all that you do. I praise you with all of my being. I trust in You and You alone.

Looking Forward

2010-02-24T17:43:00.000-08:00

I'm looking forward. Looking forward to visiting with all four of "my kids" when Joe comes to visit before deployment in three days. Looking foward to God's hand making changes for the better in my family's lives (as individuals AND as a family unit). Looking forward and not back - not to avoid the pain or forget the lessons, but to see where I can serve His purpose. Looking forward to being with my dad and My Father in heaven one day. Looking forward to sunny days and warm breezes. Looking forward to improved health and the ability (financially, spiritually and physically) to enjoying retirement one day. Looking forward to my childrens' weddings and more grandchildren. Looking forward to spending time and making memories with ALL the people I love. I'm pressing on...

Just Don't Fit Anymore

2010-01-23T20:29:00.000-08:00

I feel like a fish out of water lately. Guess it's really been building up the last few years. I don't feel like I fit anymore. Anywhere. With Anyone. And - I'm not just talking about waist size. Don't feel like I fit with most of my husband's family, had a falling out over something insignificant - and we are all Christian's! Plus, my husband shares all of his "issues" about me or my kids with his brother - so they "see me" through "tainted eyes." Again, they are Christians and so am I. Where is the forgiveness? Go Figure. My husband is a DC now, so I don't fit in that "educated circle." Actually, he's having more life experiences in Mexico without me right now. He has all "male" hobbies and I don't fit there because I can't relate or perform. My kids have a strained relationship with him - so it puts a terrible strain on me. I feel like I don't really fit as "Mom" either, because they are all adults now. My advise and opinions are "old fashioned" and discounted. Angry sentiments for life's hard times are directed or blamed on me. They don't relate to me or need me like they used to - and more often then not, I feel used (like an afterthought) instead of loved or admired. Haven't lived back in California for over 5 years and don't feel like I fit in the old circles there. Hardly anyone keeps in touch. So much has changed and I've been left out of the loop save for one friend back there. I haven't lived in Wisconsin in over 23 years...and though my family is there, I don't really fit there anymore either. Life has dealt me some hard times and while they empathize, I'm not sure they can truly relate to me on many levels. We've lived separate lives for so many years. Don't have any real friends to vent with or have fun with and hang out in Dallas...cuz' I've spent the last 5 years working 7 days a week. I have associates at work, but other than a school chum (who lives an hour away) not really fitting in there either. No money, no exceptional attributes, nothing to offer really. Haven't been to church much because of car problems, and Pastor retired. All the kids that used to go with my kids are in college so when I get there I don't recognize half the people anymore. I just don't fit anywhere. I always want to be anywhere else but where I am in the given moment. It's a very uncomfortable feeling. Wish I could shake it.

Wonderful Family

2010-01-08T08:01:00.000-08:00

God Bless Us All in 2010! I love you guys!!

2010-01-08T07:47:00.000-08:00

My Grandchildren!

It's been over 5 years since I moved from California to Texas. I'm saddened by all that I missed in the growing years of my grandchildren. But, every visit I have is a cherished memory. Look how they've grown! Aren't they beautiful? God truly blessed me when He gave me grandchildren. He blessed me with children who bless me with grandchildren. Though life is an unending struggle, this is something to be thankful for because there are many who would love to have children and cannot. God, place a hand of guidance and a hedge of protection around these precious little ones. I love them so much and know you love them more (which is difficult to comprehend). Place people in their lives who will teach them to walk in YOUR ways. When I am apart from them, remind them how much I love them. I pray this in Jesus' name, Amen.

It's a New Year

2010-01-08T07:35:00.000-08:00

It's a New Year and hopefully a time of New Beginnings. So far, it seems like the same stresses, burdens, worries and fears. Same arguments and frustrations. Do I want to lose weight and get in shape? Yes. Do I hope my financial situation improves? Of Course. Do I want my relationship to grow stronger? Who wouldn't? Is there much to pray about in the world (family, friends, economy, government, health, forgiveness, our daily walk with God)? Most certainly!
As a mortal, it is all too easy to get caught up in the chaos and distraction of the 21st century. (An old trick of the adversary). I'm the Queen of busy and distracted. "Give it to God, take it back. I can handle this." Not! It's all too easy to be a "victim" and harder to be proactive and tenacious about our true purpose. (Especially when married to an unbeliever). But, I revel in the moments God lets me know He is with me every moment. The loving whispers that all is not lost in despair and there is love - there is hope. Even when it's 17 degrees outside, the sky is blue and clear - I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful for my job, thankful for my children and grandchildren, thankful for extended family and good health. I thank God He chose me to walk with Him by sending Jesus.
So, I start the New Year rejoicing and prayerfully acknowledging all that He is and does for us. I pray for my son in the Marines and all those being deployed. I pray for my son and daughter who are unemployed. I pray for the safety of my son who is a semi driver. I pray for all of my family members who are lost or have strayed from God's path for them - please draw us near to you and keep our eyes and hearts focused heavenward. May God bless you in many, many ways this year.

Veteran's Day Afterthoughts

2009-11-12T06:13:00.001-08:00

I've been thinking about Veteran's Day, and reading a lot of books about terrorism (my 20 year old son is a Marine and I'm trying to educate myself). I have a lot of patriotism in my family that I hadn't truly recognized until just yesterday. My late father was in the army (as was his brother, my Uncle Jack), my husband and his brother were in the Navy (and their father, my father-in-law served in the army), their sister Melanie served in the army, the boys' Uncle Herb was a Marine, I have a nephew in the Army (Michael Schommer) as well as some friends I acquired through my sons (Billy Ellison, Bryce McNeely and Michael Shephardson), another young friend is about to graduate from MCRD as a Marine (James Monroe), I have a nephew and a friend in the Airforce (Mitchel Bayes and Jeff Fortner), my former boss Michael Fassio and many more who served our country whose lives have touched the fringes of my own.
As I read "The Sand Box", "Heros Among Us" and "Fear Less" it made me realize that what these people do is not only for our country and the freedom that is our birthright, but they are truly trying to do God's work for all countries. Each day, they work His mission by showing the world what liberty, freedom and peace really means! It is the desire of all people. They endure and train and perform for the sake of others. They all sacrifice for us by serving and putting our needs before their own - and some sacrifice all by giving their lives to the task. The passion, dedication and courage they exemplify has humbled me in a great way. I'm so grateful to each of them, so thankful for every man and woman who are the sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, husbands, wives, mothers, fathers and comrades in arms with brothers and sisters from all walks of life that make America beautiful.
My prayer is that God would open our eyes to our own duty, here at home. That we wouldn't be complacent or callous about terrorism and war. That we don't spout opinions tainted by media as our own but will instead educate ourselves and be aware with a keen mind and heart. Though we don't always agree with it, God in His infinite wisdom can use the wicked things in life for the good purpose of all.
I pray that none harden their hearts to veterans or military personnel but instead, give them the praise, thanks and support they deserve from their country and their people. For the injured and broken, let us do everything we can to help them live the rest of their life with dignity and honor. They do this for you and me! And for those who grieve and have suffered loss, my prayer is that God provides you with a covering of strength to endure the days ahead. May He offer you peace and the knowledge that your fallen hero is in the hands of Christ our Savior who loves them even more then you. He knows what giving the ultimate sacrifice for saving others is all about. They wear a special crown for what they did in the line of duty.

Too Many Blogs

2009-09-12T11:46:00.000-07:00

I have too many blogs and never enough time to keep up. I MIGHT get on each of them once a month. I don't know how people who constantly update can possibly get any work done! I mean, with MySpace, Facebook, Twitter, Plaxo and all the rest...you could literally be on the computer all day. I can't do it. I just can't. Not with good conscience anyway.
In this age of electronics, gamers, cell phones and PDAs, the do everything in the fast pace hurry and get to the party mentality, I think I might be slipping into the "old fashioned" category. At 51 years old - I guess I'm entitled to. And, truthfully, I'm not sure I want "everyone" to know my every thought, mood, frustration, screw ups and/or joys. You become disconnected from life when you are reading it in print rather then experiencing it in "real life". Being glued to your phone, computer or television makes you a slave to the media and someone else's opinions. And I'm not just talking reality shows here folks. Like Garth Brooks song "The Dance" you simply have to experience the good, the bad and the ugly as well as the love and happiness in life. Trust me, I've had my share of all of it. Been there, done that, bought the t-shirt. But you know what? Thanks to the good Lord, I'm going to continue on the road I started...in the way I started...the good "old fashioned" way.

Homesick

2009-06-13T09:03:00.001-07:00

My son graduated Pfc meritoriously promoted. My stepson graduated high school. Another son is an OTR semi driver and another is trying to enlist in the army (albeit a few major obstacles to overcome first). My daughter and all my grandkids are in California and I work so much I don't have any real friends or hobbies. My husband is always studying and we're too broke to do anything (like go on a date to a movie or anything). I'm homesick for "life the way it used to be" when the kids were smaller and still looked up to and needed their Mom. To busy weekends watching soccer games or football practices and summers going camping or on road trips. I miss family in Wisconsin I never get the time or money to visit them. I never even get back to my little church in Rio for Sunday service. Heavy sigh, heavy heart.

Son Made Squad Leader

2009-03-21T13:04:00.000-07:00

I'm SO proud of my 19 year old son who made squad leader. . .in Marine bootcamp. "With great privlege comes great responsibility" he said. He only gets 4-6 hours of sleep a night. But, he's enjoying the challenge and it's molding him into a new man. I pray for his strength, endurance, protection and guidance. Thank you Lord for being our Savior and for covering my son with blessings.

Disappointed in Obama

2009-02-25T10:14:00.000-08:00

I may be ruffling the feathers of many of the President's followers, but I have absolutely NO confidence in him. His speech last night was all "vanilla" and just another campaign speech. So many hidden agendas in his stimulus plan are just plain unconstitutional. Have you noticed that the stock market keeps dropping as a result of his decisions and directives? It's only been a couple of week's since he's been in office! He continues to "blame" his predecessor for the state of economy. PLEASE! It's beyond panic mode and I don't think he can patch it up with his "feel good" speeches. I can't believe how many of the American people bought into this dog and pony show. The only thing I can do now, is hope things change for the U.S.A. and pray that God takes charge of the President and his cabinet.

Proud Parent of a U.S. Marine

2009-02-25T10:12:00.001-08:00

My youngest just shipped off last week to San Diego for boot camp. I'm now the proud parent of a U.S. Marine! I pray that he doesn't go to Afghanistan. But, I trust in God to take care of, guide, and protect Joe on his life's journey.

Check In

2008-05-06T18:29:00.000-07:00

I haven't been on my blog space since December! I have 3 now, this one - My Space and Facebook. And ya' know, I never have time for them either. It's supposed to be a place to journal your life and make new friends, check in with folks. I seem to be missing the boat.

Too much work and not enough play. Besides, my husband hates these things. Although, I won't even get into the things he surfs the net for that absolutely outrage me.

Suffice it to say I'm plugging along day by day and getting older by the second. I don't feel like I'm almost 50, but I do feel like I've worked my whole life and not had near enough fun, relaxation and stress free livin'.

So, pray for me and I'll pray for you. May God lead us all down the path we are to go and not lay too may difficult trials in the journey.

Peace out.

My Christmas Present

2007-12-28T17:41:00.000-08:00

Christmas started out horribly. No money for presents and I was missing my kids, grandkids and friends in California. It was cold in Texas and my in-laws used all the propane for heat, we had to wait 2 days for delivery and froze! Didn't have money for that because the electric bills were so high I had to pay on both of them!
On Christmas day, the water heater blew a pipe and we had to mop up 100 gallons of water. My stepson and mother-in-law were sick, and made all of us sick.
When I got back to work on Friday though, I had an email with a picture of my son and grandson. It's the first I have of them together and it just melted my heart. I pray that God leads, protects, provides and watches over them...my precious boys! I pray He guides, protects and provides for all those I love and care about. Even a few folks I'd like to forget (forgive me Father).
So, an act of kindness salvaged an otherwise miserable Christmas! Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to All!

Happy Birthday Little Man!

2007-10-11T18:26:00.000-07:00

My little man Z turns one on October 31st! The newest grandchild has totally captured my heart just like the rest. Isn't he just adorable! Look at those eyes and that little pumpkin tooth smile!

His Mommy is expecting a little sister in the New Year so pray for her and their family.

My son would like to be more involved in his son's life but there are many obstacles hindering him. Please pray that God opens the door for jobs, housing, patience, understanding, and guidance for everyone involved. Pray that He leads J to being the man and father God created him to be.

Autumnal Greetings

2007-10-11T18:22:00.000-07:00

Autumn greetings to all! I love the change of seasons and two of my favorites are autumn and summer. I've been unexplainably blue and weepy though. Haven't been able to rid myself of the frump so I went for a walk at the local park. It's beautiful there. It's has a lake, trees, manicured lawns, ducks, geese, turtles and squirrels. People play soccer or frisbee flag football. The sky is a rainbow of colors as the sun sets. Even when life keeps throwing curve balls, God "catches" your attention!

Dreams

2007-09-26T18:13:00.000-07:00

I had a dream about my father the other day. The stresses of life have just been piling up and compounding over the days and years, and in my dream he was alive and healthy. He was telling me that "everything will be okay hunney bunny". Was it his wisdom that was so comforting to me? Did God know I needed to "see" and "hear" my earthly father so I could cry and wish Daddy would make everything okay? Our Heavenly Father wants us to look to Him with faith for all things, but was this His provision to ease my grief? Oh, the cycles of life. We are blessed to endure them because He gave us life. I'm so thankful for that and for God's love.

So, another disappointment may be had and tomorrow may just be more grief but as a country song goes, "Tomorrow's another day, and I'm thirsty anyway...so bring on the rain."

I'm Not Forgetting My Bro

2007-08-03T17:59:00.001-07:00

I'm not forgetting about my brother, B. He has had as many crisis and detours down the path of life as I have. We are only 10 months apart, and for one month each year...we are calendar twins. I'm very close to my brother and proud of the difficulties he's weathered and the great changes he's making in his life. We both miss Pa terribly, but B was his only son and best friend. I love ya' big brother. May God continue to watch over and keep you and yours close. May He grant us smooth sailing and a diminishing of rocky roads as we continue down life's path.

Sisters are a Blessing

2007-08-03T17:50:00.000-07:00

I have been extremely blessed with two sisters (and one brother). But, because I'm a woman sisters are a particularly wonderful blessing. We understand each other as women, we share the same parents and similar experiences with our upbringing, and the bond of love and friendship is stronger then no other. We may not always agree, but Lord help anyone who hurts my sisters. Each of us has endured hardships unique to the individual, and each of us has been there to lend a hand, a listening ear or a shoulder to cry upon.
Though I love my brother equally the same, the relationship I share with my sisters is one that I treasure and try to mimick with all my women friends. I guess God knew when he created us that our unique family unit would be the perfect situation for us. I'm so thankful for J and C. I love ya' like nobody else can! May God bless you when we are apart. Know that you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

Love, Your big sis!

Family Reunion

2007-08-03T17:32:00.001-07:00

My mother and her twin celebrated their 70th birthday! We all got together for a family reunion and I had the opportunity to see cousins I haven't seen in years. Funny how time flys. My cousin commented on how he didn't feel one bit older then he did when he was a teen. I agree. In many ways, I still think I have so much learning to do, so many things to see and experience yet, and I certainly don't know where the years went.

Happy Birthday Mom! Like your birthday cake said "Aged to Perfection."

MORE OF Z

2007-06-29T05:22:00.000-07:00

This is my newest grandson, Z. My son thinks he is his son, but he's not sure and there hasn't been a paternity test. But, even if there wasn't one - this little man has already wormed a permanent place in my heart as my grandson. His is just adorable. And, I am beginning to develop a bond with his mommy. We share a kinship of sorts, as the stories of our lives are starting out pretty much the same.

Please pray for S and E "Z". She just completed her G.E.D. and is enrolling in cosmetology school. Also, pray that I find the ways and means to visit my daughter in August and in doing so get a chance to meet the grandson I've never met.

GOD IS SO GOOD

2007-06-29T05:08:00.000-07:00

Two of my sons have found jobs, two more to go (one son and one friend). They desperately need work within two weeks. Also, they need a car (or two) reasonable enough for them to afford. Just a fixer upper to get them back and forth to work. Economical on gas preferably. Please continue to pray for my oldest son J and D.
J (my youngest) was approached by a man after his testimony last Sunday. (And let me tell you, I was shocked and grateful for the change God made in my son's life). The man used to be a Hell's Angel and was into drugs, etc. J's testimony reminded him of his own when he was a young man. He told J, "If you can tell your church family about this testimony ... you can tell others and reach others." "I have been riding my motorcycle and giving testimony ever since I found the Lord." He spent the rest of the service that evening with his arm around J.
He gave J a job at his paint store/business and told him he'd pay for his classes at the junior college. Folks, I PRAYED for a job that would provide for my son(s) needs and put them with Christians who would mentor them as well. God heard my prayer and I consider it such a honor that they were answered. I'm so grateful and feel the perfect love of our Father. It just amazes me!
Please continue to pray for my "middle" son J. Even though he has found a job, I suspect his priorities are askew. It's rained so he can't work when it rains. But, beyond that he promised to pay the first month's rent in the boys' home (they are renting our little house) and is now going back on that promise because he is moving in with a friend. Plus, he and this friends drink alcohol and smoke weed. Neither is 21. Plus, J's son's mother served him with papers for child support. He suspects the child is his, but he's not 100% sure and he doesn't want to pay child support, "because she won't even let me see the kid."
However this is supposed to work out for God's will and purpose, I'm praying with fevor! I also pray that J doesn't have to hit "rock bottom" before he seeks the Savior.
My deepest thanks for praying for my family.

Church Camp Blessed

2007-06-23T13:43:00.000-07:00

My son just returned from a trip to New Mexico from church camp. He called the other night just blessed and praising God. He gave his testimony twice and the youth group leader said he was a spiritual giant. Now that he's back, I pray God's love and blessings as well as protection so that it doesn't fade and he continues his journey down God's chosen path.

When I Get Where I'm Going

2007-06-22T19:44:00.001-07:00

Artist/Band: Paisley Brad

Lyrics for Song: When I Get Where I'm Going

Lyrics for Album: Time Well Wasted

(Featuring Dolly Parton)

When I get where I'm going

on the far side of the sky.

The first thing that I'm gonna do

Is spread my wings and fly.

I'm gonna land beside a lion,

and run my fingers through his mane.

Or I might find out what it's like

To ride a drop of rain.

(Chorus)

Yeah when I get where I'm going,

there'll be only happy tears.

I will shed the sins and struggles,

I have carried all these years.

And I'll leave my heart wide open,

I will love and have no fear.

Yeah when I get where I'm going,

Don't cry for me down here.

I'm gonna walk with my grandaddy,

and he'll match me step for step,

and I'll tell him how I missed him,

every minute since he left.

Then I'll hug his neck.

So much pain and so much darkness,

in this world we stumble through.

All these questions, I can't answer,

so much work to do.

(Chorus)

But when I get where I'm going,

and I see my Maker's face.

I'll stand forever in the light,

of His amazing grace.

Yeah when I get where I'm going,

there'll be only happy tears.

Hallelujah!

I will love and have no fear.

When I get where I'm going.

Yeah when I get where I'm going.

I recently heard this song again and while the tears rolled down my face, I chuckled and smiled. I can just hear my Pop singing this with his deep, booming voice and steely blue eyes sparkling. I imagine him saying these words to me and calling me honey bunny. I can't wait to get where I'm going Pop. I'll try to cry more happy tears for you.

Love, Sudabell

Father and Son

2007-06-21T12:28:00.000-07:00

Here is a picture of my Pop (the rock I mentioned in the previous post) and my bro. It must be extremely difficult for my brother to be without Dad. Father's Day for them was unique, as B was his only son. Hang in there bro, we love ya' loads...your sons and grandsons do too!

How Great Thou Art

2007-06-21T11:24:00.000-07:00

Every time I hear that song, it makes me cry. It was my grandmother's favorite song, and thus became my father's favorite song. This was the first Father's Day in my life that Dad wasn't here. I couldn't call or send a card and tell him how much I love him. When they sang Dad's song at church, I couldn't stop the tears...I still can't. I looked up to heaven and said, "Happy Father's Day Pop." "I miss you so much."
I read my sister's blog and amazingly (or not so amazingly since it was inspired by God with the help of my Pop in heaven) they sang "How Great Thou Art" at her church service too. I grieve for what is lost, but rejoice for what was gained. Dad is waiting for us in heaven! I try to draw strength and joviality from that. He let me know he's listening and watching, up there with Jesus. His song will forever touch my heart with comfort and I doubt I can ever hear it again without tearing up.
My sons have a fractured, disconnected relationship with their Father. Abandonment, hurt and disappointment are the memories that most paint the picture of their relationship. They don't have a good relationship with my husband, their step-father. It is marked by criticism, condemnation, unforgiveness and anger. I grieved on Sunday (and continue to grieve this week) because they are not as blessed as I was. There are no perfect fathers, or mothers, or daughters and sons. I know this. But, my Dad was always a dad, father, counselor and protector every single minute of my life. Even when he wandered from the chosen path, the love he shared for me and my family was the kind of love God expects of his children. So, I grieve the rock that passed to a heavenly place and cling to the one our Lord provided. I will press on toward the mark, endeavoring to keep my eyes and thoughts and spirit toward heaven because now I see my Heavenly Father and my Pop when I focus there. Lord God, How TRULY Great Thou Art!

Brothers

2007-06-06T05:11:00.000-07:00

My oldest son came for his little brother's graduation. The middle son and my daughter couldn't make it. But, this picture reminds me of the bond of brothers. Though they fight and bicker and contest egos and strong willed opinions...the love of brothers is undeniable. Just watch how they react if the other is hurt or in danger. I love you very much boys!

Class of 2007

2007-06-06T05:08:00.001-07:00

CONGRATULATIONS and all God's best to the class of 2007!

No Baby Boy

2007-06-06T05:02:00.000-07:00

I can't believe it! My baby boy has graduated from high school. He's excited and ready to spread his wings. My husband thinks it's great...but I'm so sad. I've been a Mom since I was 19 years old. I don't know what else to be, or do, or how else to feel. It's a bit of a midlife crisis because I get so sad. Almost like I am losing my identity.
But, pray for my son (all of them). This young man needs God's guidance and direction, protection and intervention. Help him map out a future that is pleasing to you Father God. Let him know how much he is loved by the Lord. Remind him to press on toward the mark, keeping his eyes and Spirit fixed on Jesus. Put a woman in his future (and the future of all my sons) that is rooted and grounded in Christ. These things I pray in Jesus name. Amen.

Heavy Sighs and Heavy Prayers

2007-04-13T17:55:00.000-07:00

Just once I wish I would have something positive to write about. Seems that those events are few and far between. I feel so "broken". The burdens of life (and mid-life no less) just seem to be taking their toll. I know this frump I'm in is not of God and I rejoice that He will make a way for me. Still, so many trials have been coming against me. I actually thought to myself recently, "I'd like to go to sleep and then wake up in heaven because the Lord came back when I was sleeping." Just so I don't have to feel depressed, or sick, or hurt and upset. I've been doing the work of three people during my 9-5 job, and then I work on Saturday (and some Sundays) because I'm the sole breadwinner and I don't make enough to make ends meet. I rush home (1 and 1/2 hours from the apartment that is home during the week) on Wednesday nights for bible study...rush back on Thursday to work. Then I go home Saturday night after working all day (or Sunday morning for church) to spend the day with the boys (usually--church, shopping, cleaning and doing laundry), go to the evening service and then head back again to do laundry and dishes at the apartment, go to sleep by 11 for work on Monday morning. My husband is always demanding time with me and we argue about money, kids and God all the time. (He's not a believer). My grandkids call and tell me they miss me. I have one grandson I've never met or kissed or held yet. My sons call and ask for money. My other son tells me he's "outta' here" after graduation in May. He's been hanging with a young man who is of questionable morals and it's breaking my heart. Again...I just feel broken. Like I can't be fixed. Again, my heart knows that God is greater then all of this but my head feels like it's stuffed full with cotton fluff. Heavy Sigh. Say some heavy prayers for me.

Belated Birthday Smooch

2007-02-12T15:17:00.000-08:00

Oh, and my granddaughters just turned 7 on the 9th. I sent them presents and they got to open one on their birthday a day BEFORE the party. G picked the package with clothes, F picked the package with a Barbie! This picture was taken a year ago in Disneyland. They are growing so fast.
Happy Birthday to my Honeys! Grandma sends the biggest smooch ever. Love you more than the moon!

Valentines and Birthdays

2007-02-12T15:09:00.000-08:00

Here is my late father, and my husband. Dad's birthday would have been the 17th and Valentines Day is the 14th. Two men I love dearly seated next to each other in conversation. Because of Dad's homegoing and because of ongoing life stresses with my husband back in school full-time and finances an insurmountable burden, my heart feels as if it has been squeezed or wrung out. Yet, half-heartedly I DO want to let my husband know I love him and wish my father a Happy Birthday in heaven. So, here is a valentine kiss and a birthday hug from a weary heart. With much love from your wife and devoted daugther!

Final Resting Place

2007-01-26T18:19:00.000-08:00

After receiving this picture from my sister, I cried and cried buckets of tears. I guess because it is so final and complete...to see my father's ashes in an urn. But, I was comforted by the fact that this really isn't his final resting place. He's with my Heavenly Father. My Daddy and my Father are together. This vessel simply houses what is left of what was the vessel that housed my Pa's soul. I look forward with anticipation to the day when we can ALL be together. I love you both, my Father and my Pa!

I Got a Star and a Snowflake!

2007-01-26T18:10:00.000-08:00

My granddaughter was talking to me on the phone the other night and we were discussing school and class and grades. She said, "Grandma, I got a star and a snowflake on my math paper!" I told her how proud I was of her and how much I missed her and she said, "I know, I miss you too Grandma." "I'll send you my paper so you can have a Star and a Snowflake." Isn't that just the sweetest thing?

Do Ants Have Noses?

2007-01-26T17:58:00.000-08:00

My granddaughter F noticed that ants always come in her room when it rains and they seem to "find food crumbs" on the carpet. She said, "It really bugs me." "Grandma, do ants have noses?" I tried to explain the antennae to her, but she didn't believe it.
Then, she was talking to my husband about school (he's in chiropractic college) and he told her he had to study for a test. She said she hated tests and that "You need to finish school and bring Grandma back here." "You're too old for school." "Grandma has a job to do here." He asked her what grandma's job is to do and she said, "To love little kids!"

2007-01-26T17:37:00.000-08:00

My firstborn son turned 21 on the 18th of January. A milestone for the young man. It was a bittersweet day for me because he is in California and I'm in Texas. Furthermore, my father passed away just 1 month and 1 day prior. I'm still grieving and my husband isn't understanding or supportive at all. He's focus on his career goals and money issues. His constant bickering and picking is just making life miserable and I react by lashing out. What should have been a happy day for my son was laced with all kinds of sarcasm from my husband because of unforgiven acts done in his youth. Lord grant me the wisdom to change the things I can, the courage to change the things I cannot and the wisdom to know the difference. Happy Belated Birthday son. I love you.

Dad's Homegoing

2006-12-19T08:28:00.000-08:00

My father passed away on Sunday at 6:32 p.m. Complications from the cancer, possibly a blood clot. I'm saddened that I didn't get to see him one last time while he was still alive, but I did get to tell him how much I love him and he me. God is merciful, and he kept Dad's suffering short. The song by Mercy Me is playing right now on my computer "I Can Only Imagine" and we are going to play "Homesick" at the services too. One day, we'll have a joyous reunion with my Dad and our Heavenly Father.

Thank you for all your prayers. Bless you as we rejoice for my Father.

Chemotherapy

2006-12-13T11:39:00.000-08:00

Dad started chemotherapy yesterday, and my sisters sound absolutely wiped. I cried because I couldn't be there to at least uplift them and hold Pa's hand. The stress of being in a helpless situation is taking it's toll on me. I can't sleep, I've gained weight and my neck/back/shoulder are hurting continuously. Now, my hip hurts too. Then I think to myself, "What a wuss. Dad's going through hell and I'm complaining of headaches and pain!" I get so mad at myself. I pray everyday for a miracle cure to buy some more time with my Dad. Cancer is such an ugly word and an ugly disease!
Please pray for my Father and my Mom and siblings. This is a trying time. They found more spots of cancer (one on his liver and one in his shoulder now). We all need faith and strength and a gentle reminder that God is in control.

Visiting Grandpa

2006-12-11T15:09:00.002-08:00

My daughter arrived to visit Grandpa and Grandma. It was late and they were all tired, but thrilled that she got to spend time with them. Dad is looking pretty weak and Mom is being as strong as she can. Please pray for them both. For strength, faith and health. Pray that the doctors would be wise in their care of Dad. And also that we can continue to rally around them both during Dad's illness. It's financially, emotionally and physically taxing...especially for my siblings who live there.

Here is my baby sis with her niece and nephew. They make a handsome picture -- I only wish the visit were for a different reason. My son loved it so much there, he's talking of moving there for good! Pray that God's hand intervenes with his newborn son and that situation. If it be God's will, I ask that Jordon take full custody of his son. I pray that God would bless him with the parenting skills to be a Godly father and that my son would raise him in the Lord. My daughter needs prayer for her family finances and health too. She has back pain of unknow origin.

Have Faith

2006-12-11T15:09:00.001-08:00

During my father's illness and all the ugliness of cancer, a gentle friend reminded me to have faith.

Luke 20:29
The Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."

So many people have the attitude "I believe it when I see it" Faith does not work like that. Faith is the believing without seeing. We have faith that God exist because of all He has truly done for us. If I didn't have Christ in my life there is no telling where I would be. I know my life before Him was not headed in the right direction. He saved me from anger, pain, and so many other things. I truly believe that He is the only reason I am still alive! He let me live another day so that I could be a witness for Him. So that is what I am doing. I am sharing His Word in hopes that someone who does not know him will come to know him!

Let me be first to say coming to Christ does not make myself or anyone else perfect. We are flesh and we sin...ALL OF US! But is does give you an opportunity for a better life, an eternal life in Heaven with our Father. But let me also tell you it will not be easy, especially if Satan felt like he already owned you. He will fight to keep you from choosing Christ. He will bring things to make you feel like Christ has not stood by you, but Christ will NEVER leave you or forsake you!!! He promised that in His Word. We just have to have the faith in Him that He will take care of us no matter what! Trust in God, choose God to be the Lord of Your Life.

God bless you and keep you!

Z Concerns

2006-12-05T14:46:00.000-08:00

My new grandson Z has brought some concerns to the forefront. My son (Z's uncle) took his brother (Z's daddy) the 60 mile trip to visit his one month old son. The mommy has a new boyfriend who wouldn't allow her to take Z to visit his Daddy and wouldn't allow my son to go visit Z. Anyway, he finally got to go visit and Uncle J is very concerned. He called me about it and said something to his brother J. Daddy just became defensive.
Uncle J said that he's (the baby) lethargic and not responding like a normal one month old (he has lots of Uncle and big brother experience). He said there are 3 cats in the household and if Z is like his Daddy, he's very allergic to cat dander. He said he wakes up and then throws up, has a rash on his face and is wheezy. He said he doesn't focus his eyes and something just isn't right. He seemed to unresponsive. What am I to do? I told him to try to convince the mommy (or his brother, my son and the daddy) to take him to a doctor to get him checked out. Might just be allergies.
My daughter called on the cell and tried to talk Uncle J into taking him to urgent care or calling CPS but he was afraid of upsetting his brother and fearful she'd never let J see his son again.
Please pray for this situation.

Bonding with Grandpa

2006-11-28T15:03:00.000-08:00

My son had the opportunity to visit with Grandpa and bond a little more. Dad filled him in on all the dirt about his mother (me) and things I did when I was younger. J just loved it! He even took Grandpa to one of his radiation treatments. I'm so thankful God has allowed us these precious moments with precious people.

Praise the Lord

2006-11-28T14:59:00.000-08:00

Dad has prayerfully considered and accepted to try chemotherapy! He's been feeling a little better due to radiation treatments and gained some confidence in his doctor. I'm so thankful to all those who have been lifting him in prayer. Please continue to do so and pray for my mother and siblings who have been tirelessly taking care of him. I ache because I can't be there to help out.

Unity Prayer

2006-11-20T11:16:00.000-08:00

Well, we have a few more details about Dad. Just as grim and shocking as the initial diagnosis. Although, he still has to meet with the oncologist the doctor spoke with him today. It's stage 4 lung cancer and it's in his bones and the adrenal glands near his bladder or kidneys. He has a spot the size of an orange on his left lung and smaller spots on his right. So far, it hasn't gone to his brain.

There's a slight chance that chemo could extend his life, but Dad has (so far) said no to chemo because he's watched friends go through it and suffer so much. They can only do radiation on one area (for pain relief) so that would probably be his lower back area.

The new prognosis is 3-6 months (with no chemo).

So, I'd appreciate all your prayers in Dad's behalf. We're all taking this pretty hard. I mean, I know I'm 48 years old...but I'm just not prepared to lose my Dad. He's 72 and that's just too young. But, I will take your advice and go to see him over the holidays...tell him how much I love him and leave nothing unsaid (as if I were capable of doing that--leaving something unsaid that is).

Pray with me now if you would.

Dear Heavenly Father,
It is with gracious hearts and thankfulness that we come to you today. And, your word says that where two or more gathered in your name...so we pray collectively to you now. Lord God, you knew the path my father's life would take and all that he would endure during his life before he was even created in his mother's womb. You knew the timing of this illness and you know the final outcome. Father God, we lift Dad up to you today. Ease his pain and suffering, and if it be your will grant him the courage to make the right decision for the proper course of treatement...whatever that may be. Be with Mom now and in the coming months Father. Her health is frail at best and her spirit is so tender. Allow me and my siblings the time and financial means to support them through this Lord. I don't know how, but I know you can provide a way. And, if small miracles are in order I would ask that my children and grandchildren have the opportunity to see their grandpa one last time before he goes home to be with you.
And, one last respectful request Father God. For all my friends and family who have fallen prey to the nicotine addiction. Lord, give them strength to quit before it's too late. I know how difficult ANY addicition is, but this particular addiction is and always has been heavy on my heart. My sons, my daughter, my sister, my brother along with countless friends need your strength and conviction to quit. Please give them that strength to quit once and for all. Touch their bodies and minds with a healing touch.
Thank you for all that you are and all that you do. You are the Holy Father, Master Physician and Healer. We count on your grace and mercy each and every day.
It is in the name of your son Jesus we pray, Amen.

Pray For Dad

2006-11-18T13:26:00.000-08:00

My father was just admitted to the hospital. He's lost 50 pounds in the last month or so. Has been experiencing debilitating pain and getting quite weak. The gave him a CT scan and saw something suspicious and gave him another. There may be a tumor.
Heavenly Father, we praise and adore your Holy Name. Father God, I lift up my father "D" (and my mother "C") to you this very moment. Lord God, if there is a tumor please deliver a healing touch. Provide Dad with the best care in every aspect available. Father, you are the author of miracles. If it be your will, provide a miracle for Dad. Let the tumor be benign and removable. Strengthen both my father and my mother during this time. Lord Jesus, your healing touch would deliver him from sickness and pain. Please provide him with a complete and expedient healing.
It is in your precious name I pray, Amen.

Welcome to the World!

2006-11-14T13:40:00.000-08:00

This is the newest member of the family "Z"! Isn't he cute? Well, of course his grandmother would think he's adorable as she's a little biased. I have been waiting DAYS for a sneak peek at him and it finally arrived.
Welcome to the world baby boy! God bless you, you little miracle from heaven. May He protect and guide you all your days.

Love always,
Grandma

He's Here!

2006-11-01T07:42:00.000-08:00

My grandson was born yesterday at 7:45 AM (on my sister's birthday) E or his nickname Z weighed in at 7 lbs 7 oz (exactly what his father weighed) and was 19 1/2 inches long. Welcome to the world Z! Grandma loves you!! So does God!

Happy Birthday Shenna

2006-10-31T11:47:00.000-08:00

This is my sister "Shenna". The baby of the family (and spoiled rotten), she is also my best friend and a very loving, Christian mother. She turns (let's see...I'm 11 years older and I'm 48) 37 today! She hates that her birthday is on a "pagan holiday" but, truthfully God has perfect timing and for whatever reason He chose this day to be the day of her birth!
I'm the one who suggested her middle name and my father heard a beauty queen with the same first name. So, not only was she beautifully and wonderfully made in our mother's womb by God, but He allowed her family to chose her name! Well, her birth name anyway. Her married name is another story. LOL! I love her husband like a brother so I'm just getting a little dig in.
Happy Birthday Sis. May God Bless you today and every day of the coming year.

Surgery Success

2006-10-31T06:00:00.000-08:00

Well, Big J had his surgery a week ago. So far, it seems to be a success. He had this funky ice machine apparatus for the first few days on his shoulder to help with swelling. It has a little motor in a cooler that you fill with ice and there are two tubes attached to a specialized bladder that is held by velcro to his shoulder. He's already trying to reduce to the pain medication and only took 2 doses yesterday. I'm believing God assisted the surgeon in repairing the damage so that he's as good or better then new when he's all healed up! The stitches come out Friday, just in time for him to go see his little brother J play a home game for parents night.
By the way, little J's team got stomped last week 48 to 7. BUT, the highlight of the evening was that the one and only touch down was made by wide receiver (you guessed it) JB!!! Caught it on the 30 yard line and ran it in for the TD. Way to go son!!

Pray for Firstborn Son

2006-10-22T19:18:00.000-07:00

This is the son J that needs your prayer. He'll be having surgery on Tuesday (we have to go in at 6:15 AM for prep). The doctor will be repairing ligaments to his right shoulder and resetting a dislocated clavical and amion something or other. Please pray that there are no complications before, during and after the surgery. Pray for complete healing so that he can pursue his career in the automotive repair industry.
Heavenly Father, I praise you and adore you. It is your love and guidance that see me through each and every day. Lord, I lift my son to you in prayer. Be with the doctors and staff during his upcoming surgery. Father, stand watch over my boy and guide the procedure and aftercare with your skilled mastery. Diminish his pain so that he needs almost no medication afterward. Lord, draw him close to you and keep him from harm. May you grant a speedy recovery since he has to return to school in December. Place a hedge of protection around him (and all my children) and a hand of guidance upon him. Thank you for the gift of my children. Thank you for my son. I stand firm in the knowledge that you have a hand in all that we experience and good will come of even this injury. Thank you Father. I love you. It is in the sweet name of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, that I pray. Amen.

Prayer Warriors

2006-10-21T14:34:00.000-07:00

All you prayer warriors come to the rescue. I have an urgent, pressing request. First, my husband and I have been quarreling non-stop for days and it's causing a great deal of strain on our already fragile marriage. Please pray for divine wisdom and intervention for BOTH of us.
Also, my son is requiring surgery for an injury to his shoulder sustained in a fall on October 11th. The surgery is Tuesday. Please pray for the operation to be a total success and for rapid healing.
My spirit is depressed and troubled, and these are not things of God. Please say prayers for me.

Check It Out

2006-10-12T21:05:00.000-07:00

Hey, check out my True Confessions blog. Tell me what you think.

Pray for Son

2006-10-12T19:36:00.000-07:00

My son J fell down the stairs yesterday and injured his shoulder. He has a grade 3 separation of the clavical from the (I forget the medical term...but basically the ligaments that attach the collar bone to the shoulder may have been torn). He may require surgery. And, he just told me he's leaving back to California in about two weeks.
Needless to say, Mom is concerned about his health (and feeling a little sorry for herself because another one of her chicks is leaving the nest again).
Please say a prayer for his complete healing. He's due to start back at UTI in November. Pray for financial assistance, motivation, direction and for God's will in his life.
Heavenly Father I praise your holy name. I adore all that you are and all you have given us. Right now, I pray for my son J. Touch his injury Father. I pray you would direct the physicians to the best course of action. And for my son Lord, draw the people to him who would support and surround him with Godly love and inspiration, wherever he may live. Let him find a wonderful woman of Christ to be his soulmate and may she be a teammate in the journey to draw many people to Christ with him. Bolster his self-esteem and let him see himself as you see him...perfectly created in my womb. He is smart, funny, sensitive, handsome, and giving. Lord, forgive him of his sins and wrap your arms around him to comfort him with the knowledge that You will never leave him or forsake him. These things I pray in the glorius name of my Savior, Jesus Christ. Amen.

Just Kicking Back

2006-10-10T11:51:00.000-07:00

We were just kicking back in warm, sunny Texas the other day and I snapped a quick photo of "my boys" in conversation. From left to right is my youngest son J, my oldest son J, and my stepson B. For the most part, they get along (except the two J's tend to fight more because they are brothers and always have). There are battles of will and debates for power struggles. There are moments of testosterone overload in the midst of my confused, pre-menopausal estrogen surges. But, I thank God for bringing these young men into my life. Despite the struggles and chaos, I wouldn't have it any other way.

Senior Moments

2006-10-10T11:40:00.000-07:00

This is my 17 year old son J. Actually, all my kids' names start with J. He is the youngest of my children (not including my stepson) and I'm having a really hard time "letting go." When he graduates, he wants to move back to California. That means ALL of my children will be far away from me. But, he will be an adult and capable of making his own decisions. I pray God has a hand in each of those decisions.
I asked if he was going to go to junior college or technical school and he said, "I'm too stupid for school Mom." It just broke my heart. He has learning disabilities, compounded by the fact that my stepson is a GATE student Gifted and Talented Education so he constantly reminds J how "easy" tests are or how "simple" reading is. My husband doesn't help matters either. He's not a very positive person, he isn't a Christian, and he has always parented in a condescending manner. So, I pray that God (who J has just recently accepted) cements Himself in my son's heart and soul (in ALL my childrens' souls) and speaks softly to him. I pray He shows him the young man He sees and not the one the world sees.
He's handsome, talented, smart, funny and a precious new babe in Christ. I love you J. Have fun your senior year! Don't let life get you down.

Happy Belated Birthday Bro

2006-10-02T18:18:00.000-07:00

This is my Bro. His birthday was on the 27th of September. We are calendar twins. In other words, I was born 10 months after he was so for a month and a half every year we are the same age.
I love my brother. I love my sisters too, but brothers are a different flavor. From boys to men, brothers are not only the ones who taunt and irritate you, but also the ones who protect you and love you without condition.
He's had health problems and problems with love, finances, and just about everything else. But God loves him more then I do and I know he has great things in my brother's future. Not the least of which is he just celebrated his grandson's first birthday--the same day as his 49th!
I love ya' Bro. God Bless Ya!

Recovered Stolen Bike

2006-09-25T18:06:00.000-07:00

Praise God for his intervention! My husband is a motocross enthusiast and has a couple of dirt bikes. Our shop was broken into a few months ago and one of the items stolen was the dirt bike. It was the SECOND time this particular motorcycle was stolen (it was stolen once in California and recovered by the police months later).
My husband happened to be in town working on the shop (wiring, plumbing, etc). He has been on the road for 6 weeks and took 5 days off. Since he was home, he went to pick up the boys from school after football practice. The timing was God's because they had called earlier to get picked up and when he got there they weren't ready to leave. He'd gone back to the shop after the first attempt and worked for a while until they called to be picked up again.
As he was driving to the school, he was crossing the railroad tracks near the school (a few miles from our property) when a work truck was stopped at the tracks. On the back of the truck was strapped a dirt bike which immediately caught his eye. He scrutinized the slow moving vehicle and he instantly recognized the motorcycle as his because of a bent brake handle. He followed the truck around and pulled the guy over (all the while on the phone to the police) and when the young man stopped to get out of his truck my husband said, "that motorcycle is stolen property."
The police came and verified the serial numbers. The young man will be going to jail for trespassing, breaking and entering, and grand theft. The bike needs mechanical repairs but my husband was just glad to have it back.
Had he been 2 seconds later, he never would have seen the truck or his bike. Coincidence? I think not.

And Everybody Said. . .

2006-09-18T19:58:00.000-07:00

. . .AMEN!

Newly baptized young men on God's journey.

Baptism

2006-09-18T19:46:00.000-07:00

On Sunday, September 17, 2006 my youngest son made a public profession of faith and accepted Jesus as his Lord and Savior. He was baptized a day before his 17th birthday. I'm so thankful for God's grace and abiding love; and for drawing J into the fold. Please pray for him in the days to come. And continue to pray for all my children who have strayed and my husband who is agnostic. But, let us rejoice together for J and my stepson B who was also baptized. Both young men are hungry to learn and I pray that God surrounds them with loving, Godly people who will instruct them by God's will and in His word.

Still Praying

2006-09-18T17:54:00.000-07:00

Remember we have been praying for Bobby? To briefly update, he's been moved from intensive care and taken off the respirator. He had been given a tracheotomy and is now on a feeding tube. They suspect a stroke occurred but his brain swelling has finally diminished. We've prayed for a miracle and each day He grants one! We are believing the Lord will restore his body and mind completely and that he will be a vibrant witness for Christ one day. Below, his mother writes the latest update:

Bobby is doing pretty good, although I think his care was much better
in the NSICU area. They took out his Central Line today and he is not
receiving any IV fluids at this time. The only thing being given to
him is his formula (food, and salt tablets, going through his feeding
tube in his stomach. I did notice that the mucous coming out of his
trach is starting to get a yellowish, green color into it, so that
causes me a little concern that he may be getting another lung
infection (pnuemonia). The nurses are suppose to be keeping an eye on
it. Nothing more to report.

Thank you everyone for your continued prayers, positive thoughts, and
words of encouragement.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BOY

2006-09-18T17:46:00.000-07:00

This is my son (with his cousin). He HATES it when I call him "my youngest" or "the baby of the family." But, it is his birth order and I'm a little sad to say that my baby turned 17 today. He's a senior this year and my heart just aches each and every day at how fast the years have zoomed by me. All my babies are grown up and it feels like I was so busy working and being stressed that I missed it.
He and his stepbrother got baptized in church yesterday and he gave he his life to the Lord. (Pictures to follow next post). For that, I'm thrilled and cried tears of joy and sang songs of praise. Please pray for both of them. Pray that their new walk is bolstered by good Christian people and heavenly truths. Pray that God puts a hedge of protection around them and a hand of guidance upon them. May He lead them to their future wives, their future careers and their future calling serving Him.
Happy Birthday J! Your Mama loves you!

Happy Belated Birthday

2006-09-18T17:35:00.000-07:00

This is a picture of my daughter, with HER daughters (grandchildren are God's expression of pure joy) four years ago. My daughter's birthday was Saturday and I want to wish her a belated birthday on the blog so all you friends can pray for her. My granddaughters spoke to me on Saturday and said, "Grandma, why did you send Mommy a birthday card that made her cry?" I had sent her a gift and a card ... but she's been missing me and the dam of tears burst at that moment. We're friends as well as mother and daughter and I truly wish things were "as they used to be" when I lived there. I was there for any crisis, there to enjoy my grandchildren on the weekend and give her a break, there for holidays and soccer games. Now, I'm not. I'm sure there's a lesson God would have us learn during this separation, but it's difficult to endure. Most likely, it is to put God first and not get wrapped up in family until HE is the priority. Pray for us and wish Jess a Birthday when you do.

Labor Day Greetings

2006-09-02T17:35:00.000-07:00

Here is a little trivia:
The song Rosie the Riveter was already popular when Actor Walter Pidgeon discovered the real thing--Rose Will Monroe, a Ford employee who built B-24 and B-29 bombers at the Willow Run Assembly Plant in Michigan.
Rose went on to make war bond promotional films and was the inspiration for the Rosie the Riveter poster, symbolizing all U.S. women who worked in manufacturing jobs to support the World War II effort. She passed away in 1997

The origin of Labor Day :
Because of long hours and low pay, the idea of organizing workers according to their trades propigated because of a young man named Peter McGuire. He organized a march and held meetings (to organize unions) that spread around the country. Factory workers, dock workers and tool makers all began to demand and get their rights to an eight-hour workday, a secure job and a future in their trades.

Peter McGuire and laborers in other cities planned a holiday for workers on the first Monday in September, halfway between Independence Day and Thanksgiving Day. On September 5, 1882 the first Labor Day parade was held in New York City. Twenty thousand workers marched in a parade up Broadway. They carried banners that read "LABOR CREATES ALL WEALTH," and "EIGHT HOURS FOR WORK, EIGHT HOURS FOR REST, EIGHT HOURS FOR RECREATION!" After the parade there were picnics all around the city. Workers and celebrants ate Irish stew, homemade bread and apple pie. At night, fireworks were set off. Within the next few years, the idea spread from coast to coast, and all states celebrated Labor Day. In 1894, Congress voted it a federal holiday.

Today we celebrate Labor Day with a little less fanfare on the first Monday of September. Some cities have parades and community picnics. Many politicians "kick off' their political campaigns by holding rallies on the holiday. Most Americans consider Labor Day the end of the summer, and the beaches and other popular resort areas are packed with people enjoying one last three-day weekend.

Wishing you all a relaxing, safe and wonderful holiday. I enjoy the 3 day weekend, but hate the end of summer. Especially this year. It just seemed to go by so fast...I didn't really get to enjoy it. All work and very little play.

Praying for Bobby's Miracle

2006-08-28T07:07:00.001-07:00

My friend writes a glum and hopeless sounding update. But, won't you join me in praying for a miracle? I know that God is greater and Bobby can receive a miraculous interventive healing from our creator. Lift him up in ferverent prayer, won't you?

Good Evening Everyone,

Today was a very sobering day as the doctor had a sit down with us (me and my sister-in-law). It looks like they are going to keep him on the phentobarbital through the weekend as expected. The doctors are going to try and take him off possibly on Monday in order to see if his body will give us any type of response. There is a possibility that his inner cranial pressure has been high enough where he may have had a stroke. Once again there is no way to determine the amount of damage that was done to the brain without an MRI and they have been unable to do an MRI as he has not been medically stable enough to do one. In addition, the amount of fluids that he has been dumping through his urine is making a possibility of dehydration, and with all the medication that they have been giving him there is a possibility of kidney failure. The doctors have also told us that he has a slim/low chance of having a normal lifestyle if he is able to overcome the swelling on the brain and low blood pressure and dehydration. Chances are very strong that he would have to be on a ventilater and a feeding tube for the rest of his life. At this point they are unable to do surgery to remove a flap from his skull as he is not stable enough to go into surgery and the risks would be very high right now.

Please continue with the positive thoughts and prayers he really needs them.

Thank you,
Michelle

More on Bobby

2006-08-25T15:42:00.000-07:00

Good Evening Everyone,

No real change today, the inner cranial pressure stayed about the same around 15 to 19. They are still having a difficult time keeping him from dumping so much fluid from his urine. They are trying to find the happy medium between keeping his inner cranial pressure down and keeping him from dehydrating himself from peeing to much.

Please keep up the positive thoughts and prayers.

Thank you,
Michelle

Father, I ask You to bless my friends, relatives and those that I care deeply for, who are reading this right now. Show them a new revelation of Your love and power. Holy Spirit, I ask You to minister to their spirit at this very moment. Where there is pain, give them Your peace and mercy. Where there is self-doubt, release a renewed confidence through Your grace. Where there is need, I ask you to fulfill their needs Bless their homes, families, finances, their goings and their comings. In Jesus' precious name. Amen.

Michelle,
Here is my own little prayer,
Love Susan

Precious Heavenly Father,
I come to you in prayer with my friends Bob and Michelle. Together, we pray in one accord and where three are gathered in your name...there you will be also. We lift up the health and welfare of Bobby to you Lord God. He is one of your beloved, one of your children. Created by you before the foundation of the world, you knew where he would be this day. We know that your word says you will not forsake him and we trust you in your infinite wisdom and holiness.
You are the master healer, physician extraordinaire and we place his care in your hands. Be with the physicians, technicians, hospital staff and specialists as they attend to his needs. Oversee every decision and medication given. Give his parents, sibling, friends and loved ones strength, faith, and hope to endure the difficult waiting period as he recuperates. Father, stand with them and give them comfort; for it is difficult to see your child helplessly laying in a hospital bed with monitors, tubes, IV's and countless other medical instruments.
Speak to Bobby in his dreams and draw him close. Give him the willpower to fight so his body will respond in the way necessary to heal completely. Grant him a full and complete recuperation Lord God...this young man has work yet to do. Your work Father.
We love you and praise you Holy Father. Thank you for the gift of children. Thank you for all that you give us each day. We pray these things in the wonderful name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

Amen

Update on Bobby

2006-08-24T16:43:00.000-07:00

It's been up and down, touch and go for our young friend Bobby. His mom writes daily and this time she had some hopeful news:

Good Evening Everyone,

Well I am moved back into the hotel. Today was a fairly good day for Bobby, his inner cranial pressure stayed between 2 -6. Then we found out he was dumping too much fluid and that was why his inner cranial pressure was so low. So the doctors put him on another fluid to retain some of the fluid and that brought his inner cranial pressure up to between 14 & 16 which is still good. The pituitary gland is what regulates your fluid retention level and right now his gland is telling his body to dump all fluids and that will cause his body to de-hydrate which is not good either. Tomorrow they are doing a trachostomy so that the ventilator will go through a hole in his neck instead of through his mouth. The doctors say that is better and gives him less of a chance of getting recurring pneumonia.

Well I think that covers everything.

Thanks again for all of your thoughts and prayers.

Michelle

Dear Father God,

Once again we come before you with praise, hope, and love. Your word tells us to lay everything at the feet of our Lord Jesus. We humbly do that now. We trust you with our very lives and it is that trust once again with which we appeal to you for the sake of Bobby. You are working on his body Father, and we ask that you continue to heal him. We also pray for his spirit Lord God. Draw him (and all those who don't know you completely) gently back to the fold. Keep us every mindful of our own walk and help us to be faithful "do-ers". Let everyone see the rainbow after the flood Father. Let those who don't know you weep with joy and adoration of the fullfillment and revelation the Holy Spirit brings.

I love you Father God. WE love you and pray together in one accord in the powerful and wonderful name of the Lord, Jesus Christ.

Amen

Bobby's Prayer Request

2006-08-16T10:05:00.000-07:00

My friend Michelle emailed me with a prayer concern. Please pray for her son and her family.

I haven't had time to call everyone, so this was the best way I know to let everyone know what is going on with Bobby. For those that don't know Bobby was in an automobile accident early Monday morning. The car rolled 6 times and he was ejected out of the vehicle. He is at the UC Davis Medical Center in Sacramento and this is what we know so far.

He does not have any broken bones.
He does have a dislocated knee.
He does have head trauma. He is in an induced Coma to reduce the swelling of his brain and has had a line inserted in his skull to drain the fluid from his brain. He will probably stay in the induced Coma & Paralysis for the next week to try and keep his inner cranial pressure down. The doctors will try every couple of days to reduce the meds that put him in the Coma and see what the inner cranial pressure is. If they can get the inner cranial pressure stabilized than they have to evaluate how severe the damage is to his brain. He has multiple bruises on the brain so until they get the fluid and swelling down there is no way to tell what kind of damage we are talking about. If the doctors can not bring the swelling down than they will have to go to alternative measures up to and including surgery, but it does not look like we will have to go that route as his pressure is being managed with the line that was inserted in his skull.

Heavenly Father,

We come before you with praise and adoration this day. We know that you love every soul on earth beyond what we can think or comprehend. And Father, it is that love and compassion we appeal to today. We lift Bobby up to you and put his health concerns in your capable hands. Lord, give him strength and provide him with the best care as he recuperates. Grant him a full recuperation. Be with the doctors and staff that watch over him and help them make the best decisions. You are the master physician, healer, and creator. We trust in your miraculous intervention.

And Father, be with Bob, Michelle and Michael during this time. His family is concerned and worried. Bolster their faith Lord. Give them rest and peace, help them with the financial burden that is bound to arise.

We thank you in the glorious name of Jesus Christ.

Amen

What About Me?

2006-08-15T19:05:00.000-07:00

I AM - a child of God, taking baby steps each day by His wonderful grace.
I AM THANKFUL - for God's Love and for His son, our Lord, Jesus Christ.
I SAID - I'd be an entertainer (singer) when I grew up.
I WANT - so much good and happiness for my children and grandchildren.
I WISH - I had more self control in areas of great weakness.
I MISS - my family and friends in California (and Wisconsin).
I HEAR - God speaking to me through music and song.
I WONDER - when I will truly grow up.
I REGRET - every single bad choice I made and every sin I committed.
I AM NOT - disloyal.
I DANCE - when no one is looking.
I SING - whenever I can.
I CRY - like a ninny all the time over silly sentimental things like kindergarten graduation or handmade birthday cards.
I AM NOT ALWAYS - on time, or focused.
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS - creative little scrapbooks of love, memories, and family history as a token of my heart.
I WRITE - because I can express myself with ease through written words, whereas verbally I solidify.
I CONFUSE - directions.
I NEED - to spend more time with God.
I SHOULD - lose 40 pounds.
I START - getting melancholy over the speed at which time has passed.
I LOVE - to love.

Hallmark Humor

2006-08-07T12:55:00.000-07:00

I love the Hallmark character "Madge" and the little note to the right came to me in an email. Isn't it funny how sometimes things are just so appropriate? I'm REALLY dragging today and when a friend sent a few of "Madge's" little blurbs (courtesy Hallmark Cards) it brought a chuckle to this tired soul.

Speaking of which, they have a "tax free" weekend in Texas for school supplies and school clothes, etc. All the stores have special sales cuz' there's no tax! We just had it and I a spent fortune. Darn teenagers just keep growing! I used to love to shop...but now, I just see gobs of money slipping through my fingers and I'm exhausted at the end of the day. Then I feel guilty because I should have paid bills but the kids had needs that had to be met. I only have 2 school aged children left in the house (and of course I had to send my granddaughters' a little something for 1st grade), but it still seems like I'm borrowing from Peter to pay Paul whenever it's back to school time. There was a time when there were 4-5 in the house to buy for!!! I should be grateful.

Then, if they are in sports (like mine are) there's also sports gear and various sundries. Did God make a money tree? Cuz' if he did, I need to plant one PDQ (PRETTY DARN QUICK). No matter how hard I try to budget and save, something always happens. Like, last weekend someone broke into our building and stole a motorcycle. Again! This is the second time that motorcycle has been stolen (this time, I doubt it will be recovered).

Anyway, what do you all do when it's back-to-school time?

Flaming Hot

2006-08-05T12:19:00.000-07:00

Oh my goodness! It has been hot here in the Southwest (and California too I'm told). I recently heard a Christian comedianne explain what living in Arizona was like. She said, "If you want to experience the Arizona heat, go home...plug in your hair dryer and stick it in your mouth!" LOL! That is exactly how it feels here in Texas right now. Every swimming pool in sight is full of kids. I must have made a dozen glasses of fresh squeezed lemonade and my mouth still feels like I ate a sandwich made of cotton balls.

What are you doing to beat the heat?

110 DEGREES!

2006-07-22T21:17:00.000-07:00

It's 110 degrees in Northern California! We just got over 107 degrees here in Texas. But, after talking with my grandchildren today--"Mommy can't get the big pool blowed up, we have to wait for Daddy" --I decided to publish these pictures from a visit in April. It was warm then. It reminded me that we all need to bring out the inner child within and run through the sprinklers, letting the water tickle our tongue. Especially when it is 110 degrees. Not only then, but especially then. Let the grass tickle our bare feet and giggle when we get the "itchies" from it. Why? Because youth passes in an instant and we should revel in the glory of childhood. Children are most precious to God. Thank you Father for giving us children! You are worthy of all our praise.

Speaking of Christian Songs

2006-07-22T19:58:00.000-07:00

...have you heard the relatively new Brad Paisley/Dolly Parton duet? When I Get Where I'm Going? My husband called me when it first came out (to tell me how it touched him)! There is another one by Tim McGraw (that escapes me right now) that "made sense" to him in the scheme of things. Garth Brooks (yes...I enjoy country western music, along with rock and roll, christian, some contemporary...I'm a lover of music) Some of God's Greatest Gifts (Are Unanswered Prayers).

Speaking of prayers, please pray for my husband. (His parents named him because a prophet told them when his mother was pregnant that she would have a son who would one day bring many to Christ). He feels like "he spent enough time in church as a kid" that he "paid his dues." And, "Why does God let bad things happen to good people?" "Why does He let babies die?" Or, "Why is His son more important then mine?" (Teardrop)

That just brings Richard Mullin's song Creed to mind. "I believe in God the Father, almighty maker of heaven and maker of earth... and in Jesus Christ His only begotten Son our Lord..." ..."And I believe what I believe, it's what makes me what I am...I did not make it, no it is making me, it is the very truth of God not the invention of any man."

I believe.

Sending Up a Thank You

2006-07-22T19:48:00.000-07:00

Was just listening to a cd by the late Richard Mullins. I love this particular cd. Every single song on it is salve to my soul. I love to sing and don't do it enough anymore. (My husband is not a believer and doesn't like Christian music or gospel). Whenever he is gone, Mercy Me, Casting Crowns...and soon Steve Sporre's cd are in my computer playing! Some of my favorites from Richard such as Sing Your Praise to the Lord, Our God is an Awesome God, Screen Door come to me when I'm having a hard day or feeling challenged by the world.

I just want to send up a thank you for blessing us with your talent Richard, and for drawing us closer to God. Truly, you are and have always been one of His angels Richard! We miss you and can't wait to hear you sing again one day!

Our God IS an awesome God, He reigns from heaven above with wisdom, power, and love...our God is an awesome God!!!!!

Amen

Fish N Chips Anyone?

2006-07-19T19:59:00.000-07:00

A snapshot of me and my brother-in-law and sister at a local festival on one of the great lakes. Ya' can't beat the fish and chips when it's lake perch! Notice I'm drinking a beverage indigenous to the area while the youngin's are enjoying a Mike's Hard Lemonade. We all imbibe about once a year (we're light weights). No offense to those who battle substance or alcohol abuse. I might have had a problem years ago, but when I had my daughter...it changed everything. The last time I was drunk she was 11 months old and she is 29 now. I haven't had more then 1 or 2 drinks a year because alcoholism runs in my family. It was one struggle God gifted me with strength enough to avoid.

The weather was 98 degrees that day and even the almost non-existent breeze from the lake didn't offer comfort from the heat and humidity. We were dripping perspiration just sitting still! My old joints were aching and by the end of the day, my hip hurt so bad my brother-in-law had to literally pull my leg! I could barely walk. Folks, it really is all down hill after 40! Just kidding. I usually don't have any problems, but for some reason I must have had a virus or something that attacked my joints that week. Any who...if I haven't already said so, I had a blast visiting family recently. Will have to wear out my welcome and do it again soon.

COUSINS

2006-07-19T19:49:00.000-07:00

Here are five cousins. My cousin P is in the purple shirt. She is one of SEVEN cousins from my Aunt C (my mother's twin sister). My sister J is the "short one" ;-) and this was taken in her yard. My sister "Shenna" is next to me and my bro "B" is in the back. Sort of a small family reunion since I haven't seen this cousin in over 10 years!

I Got All My Sisters With Me

2006-07-19T19:42:00.000-07:00

We are
F-A-M-I-L-Y,
get up everybody and sing! Me and the sistas' during a recent visit. Notice the baby of the family to my right (Shenna), I'm in the middle (wearing light blue) and J is to my left. Nothing like sisters folks. They are the only people on earth who truly understand EVERYTHING there is about you, and put up with you anyway. God blessed me with two beautiful sisters and great friends too. I love my sisters. I am who I am because of them.

30th Reunion

2006-07-19T19:27:00.000-07:00

My bro and I recently attended our 30 year high school reunion. Yup, PWHS class of 1976. No, we're not twins...he's 10 months older then me. We are twins for about a month and a half. NONE of our friends were there, so it was a little disappointing. But, we did bump into classmates (had to look at the nametags before we could recognize them) and mingled a bit. Swapped a few stories, caught up on the local gossip. It was great. "Those were the days my friend, we thought they'd never end."

We left early and went to my brother's house for a tour. Then, stopped off at my nephew's house and kissed my great nephew. Was great to be back home with the "rents" and sisters too.

THE DASH

2006-07-12T09:05:00.000-07:00

I'm Glad You're In My Dash

I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone,
From the beginning...to the end.

He noted that first came her date of birth
And spoke the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years.

(1934 - 1998)

For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth...
And now only those who loved her,
Know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own;
The cars...the house...the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard...
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
To consider what's true and real,
And always try to understand
The way other people feel

And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile..
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy's being read
With your life's actions to rehash...
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spend your dash?

You are truly special and unique.
I'm glad that you're in my life and part of my dash.
Share this with those you care about,
From my dash to yours.

LAUGH LONG, LIVE LONG,
YESTERDAY IS HISTORY
TOMORROW IS A MYSTERY
TODAY IS A GIFT. . .
THAT'S WHY THEY CALL IT
THE PRESENT.

God Bless You!!!

Rest in Him

2006-06-30T07:05:00.000-07:00

Received this via email from a friend:

Thought this was good and great reminder to take time for God daily.....love to you all.....
dont forget to say a prayer for this mission today!!!

Blessing to you today, Susan

M. Maketime to seek Jesus daily
E. Ease into a routine.
E. Expect more from yourself.
T. Teachable. Always be ready to learn.

From: Proverbs31devotions@comcast.net

To: "Devotions"
Subject: [devotions] 6-28/Encouragement for Today
Date: Wed, 28 Jun 2006 08:41:23 -0500
June 28, 2006

"Be Still and Know"
Van Walton

Proverbs 31 Speaker Team Member, Director of Hispanic Ministries

Key Verse:
Psalm 46:10a, "Cease striving and know that I am God." (NASB)

Devotion: I find it hard to accept the fact that relaxing and reveling in life by simply resting and being still is an acceptable activity. What about you? Do you easily take time out from your busy schedule to sit before the Lord, ask Him to speak, enjoy the works of His hands, rest in Him, and delight in the blessings He has so generously poured on you? If you are like so many busy women today, carving out time to sit quietly or romp around seizing the day is not a priority.

Early in the spring, I stepped out into my yard to clear out what the last frost of the fall had destroyed. Working in flower beds, around bushes, by the fence, and next to my front porch I cleared, pruned, and tidied. I brought out the bird baths and scrubbed them down. Then I returned my concrete pieces of yard art to their specified places, filled with water. I did the same with bird feeders, filling them with thistle seed, sunflower kernels, safflower, and wild bird mixture. I ended my day by planting a few of the latest selections from my favorite garden center, and digging up and separating various grasses and lilies. When I finished, I slowly straightened my bent over body, working the stiffness from my wintered joints. There I stood in my back yard. Slowly I turned and surveyed my work. It looked good and I was pleased.
Going inside, I poured myself a glass of lemonade and returned to the fresh air of the outdoors. My favorite lawn chair beckoned so I kicked off my shoes, threw my legs up on the cushions, and put my head back to enjoy the little world I had developed.

It dawned on me that just as God had declared that His work was good, so I had found delight in my creative work. I liked the appearance of my surroundings. God rested after His work in Eden. I certainly was enjoying my brief moment, but in less than 5 minutes my body rebelled! I found, that no matter how I longed to commune with the One Who had brought me to this garden, I could not nail myself to the chaise on which I was relaxing. Finishing my refreshing drink, I stood up, stretched and moved on.

The following morning, even before the earliest rays of sunshine penetrated my sleep, I heard the songs of birds. Each little creature had his own song to sing.

I heard sharp chirps and melodious whistles. One little bird sat on a branch outside my window and serenaded me with all he had. After several minutes, his vigorous voice drew me to the window where I spotted him. As he sang, his little throat pulsed in and out, feathers ruffled, beak wide open, head held high. On and on he sang. This little guy's pitch was perfect. I noticed that the chirpers and the crowers were not intimidated, though. They did not stop their singing because there were others in the choir whose voices were more melodious.

While I listened to him and his fellow feathered friends I surveyed the work I had accomplished the previous day. A cardinal sat on a bird feeder. Robins poked around the freshly turned soil. Little wrens flew in and out of my fancy bird house. Blue jays took turns splashing in the bird bath. Clearly the flying fellows in this small lot on planet earth had no trouble basking in the garden where I had spent my time creating and developing a lovely retreat.

I stepped outside to join my 'neighbors' and participate in their praises. As I did so, God reminded me, through my own sense of delight, that it is good to enjoy and savor my Father's provisions. I felt a sense of satisfaction and joy; the birds' obvious pleasure honored and affirmed me.

I sensed God whisper: "Consider the birds of the air. They thrill in the results of your labor and by so doing, they deeply gratify you." "Child," my Father murmured, "gratify me with praise. I created earth for your pleasure. Bask in my presence. Be still and know that I am He who watches and delights while you revel in that which I have created for you."
Next time you feel a tug to sit and rest or a nudge to slow down and savor the world around you, gratify God. Do it! You will honor Him and the work of His hands. He created earth and placed you here to "take delight in the Lord." (Psalm 37:4)

My Prayer for Today:
My Father, My Creator, Your beauty is reflected here on earth in everything You created. You invite me to experience the garden, knowing I have to slow down in order to do so. Help me accept that quiet time spent with You is a good and healthy activity. Thank you, Lord for the beautiful gift of life and nature. I ask this in Jesus' Name, Amen.

Application Steps:
Read Genesis 1 - 2:21, John 14:1-4, Revelation 21:1-3; 21:9-22:2
In each of these passages God reminds me that He wants to prepare a marvelous place for me. What are the similarities in each of these three scripture readings?
Two of the greatest kings in the Hebrew nation, David and Solomon, wrote beautiful poetry and lengthy praise songs. I learn two things from their writings: 1) They knew God. 2) They didn't mind spending the necessary time needed to praise him and write about His glory. If they, in the midst of their royal duties, took time to enjoy God and tell Him so, then shouldn't I do the same?

Reflection Points:
Is my life characterized by a constant state of busyness or am I able to enjoy the presence of God on a regular basis?
Is there room in my daily schedule to spend more time with God, so I might learn more about my Father?
Do I want to have a deeper relationship with God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit?

Power Verses:
Job 22:26-27, "Surely then you will find delight in the Almighty and will lift up your face to God. You will pray to him, and he will hear you, and you will fulfill your vows." (NIV)
Psalm 24:1, "The earth is the LORD's, and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it." (NIV)
James 4:8a, "Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you." (ESV)

Additional resources:
· Becoming a Woman who Listens to God, by Sharon Jaynes
· Breathe, by Keri Wyatt Kent
· What Happens when Women Walk in Faith, by Lysa TerKeurst

Love In Pure Form

2006-06-15T20:15:00.000-07:00

I just remembered an evening about a year ago when God showed me Love In Pure Form. I had flown in and was visiting with my granddaughters for the week and sleeping on their bottom bunk bed. (It was the night before I had to leave). They were 5 and sharing the top bunk. I miss them and worry about them, and I know they probably have been to church only the 1/2 dozen times I took them before I moved away. I worry about their spirituality and wonder if they know about Jesus or God. I had flashbacks of my own son (at about their age) going to church for the first time at Christmas and saying, "Who are Mary and Joseph? Who is Jesus?" Tears, buckets of tears. Anyway, I said, "Do you want to say a bedtime prayer with Grandma?" I started to recite, "Now I lay me down to sleep..." Grace said (yes, they are twins named Faith and Grace) "I pray the Lord my soul to keep..." I was shocked, and thrilled, and with great surprise said, "How do you know that prayer?" She said, "C (her little brother) has a teddy bear that says it. Do you want me to go get it?" I said, "No." But, we finished our prayer.

Suddenly, it was clear to me that He loves them even more then I do! I mean bright light clear. How foolish I was to think that my prayers, my love, my hopes and dreams for them could even compare to His! Like I was their only lifeline to Him! (I'm so ignorant and gullible and mortal sometimes. I feel as if my brain is stuffed with cotton fluff). He told me, in that moment, without words; He will take care of them, protect them, guide them, and love them. My love for them is immeasurable and His surpasses understanding! He blessed me with children and grandchildren, and He blessed me with a glimpse of Love In Pure Form. It was so cleansing and humbling...all I could do was cry. Buckets and buckets and buckets of tears. Happy tears. For a good hour. I felt enveloped in the most beautiful expression of love anyone could ever hope to experience!

My Head Hurts

2006-06-15T20:02:00.000-07:00

My head always hurts. I have a headache 4 out of 7 days a week. Sometimes, it's a full blown migraine. I have no idea why. Sometimes, I think it is a hormone imbalance...other days I know it's sinus/allergy, plus I have a degenerative disc in my neck and I know it (and my back) are out of alignment, still other times it's stress. I'm sick of headaches. Sick of them! I hate them. They are all consuming. Like they have a life of their own. No fun. Paralyzing. They make me cranky. Going to work and popping tylenol or asprin or advil every 3-4 hours (I push it on really bad days and take them an hour early), is a pathetic existence. My husband thinks I'm hypochondriac "like my mother". I'm nothing like my mother in that respect. But, his intolerance for "weakness" and "imperfection" only bring on more headaches. Sometimes, I wish God would just bring me home so I would never again have another headache.

Electric Light Parade

2006-06-13T18:13:00.000-07:00

Have any of you ever been to Disneyland? It's Disney's 50 year anniversary this year, so after the Electric Light Parade (a nightly tradition at Disneyland...just an hour before closing they parade through the park with all kinds of "floats" made from thousands of lights) they also have fireworks. It was breathtaking! No matter how many pictures I tried to take, they just didn't do it justice. The light parade makes it a truly "magical" experience for kids and adults alike. It has synthesizers too and the people on or "in" the floats "interact" with the audience. I recommend it to almost everybody! Bring out the child in yourself!

Going on Rides

2006-06-13T09:42:00.000-07:00

The kids had no problem on the kiddie rides. F even went on some big people rides (G got scared on Space Mountain and wouldn't go back on). But, Grandma braved the big ferris wheel for their sake. Here is J with the kids on one of their roller coasters. The lines are always horrible though. Especially for favorites like Splash Mountain! They accidentally took both the girls on this hotel terror ride and they ran off crying to Grandma...F says, "those people are NOT normal"!

DISNEYLAND VISIT

2006-06-13T09:34:00.000-07:00

We had a wonderful time with the grandbabies at Disneyland in Anaheim. My grandson was a little young, but my granddaughters were the perfect age for it! I wish EVERY child could experience it once in their lifetime. I thank God that I was blessed by my husband and got to experience it with them (and my daughter/their mommy)!

Prayer Request

2006-06-02T13:54:00.000-07:00

My cousin B and his wife were in a motorcycle accident and hurt badly in Green Bay. They are now out of ICU, but your prayers for a complete and speedy recovery are urgently needed. His mother and father, (my aunt and uncle-obviously), need prayer for health concerns as well.

My sister and I have had a disagreement and I would ask your prayers for healing and understanding in the hearts of both. Also, for direction and guidance over the issue that first began the disagreement. Lord, have your will and your way prevail in the outcome with clarity and peace as well as forgiveness for both.

Heavenly father, I lift all these things to you in solemn prayer. I praise you for your love and healing touch; may you heal/repair/strengthen my family in every way. It's easy for the carnal mind to get caught up in emotions and stress, to become muddled with anger and petty grudges. Release me from these negative holds and crush the advesary beneath your feet. Forgive my indiscretions and hold me close Father.

These things I pray in the name of our Savior, Jesus Christ.

Amen

Ma and Pa

2006-05-25T09:06:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to say how much I treasure my Mom and Dad (we call them Ma and Pa...after an old family show Ma & Pa Kettle, a term of endearment). As they approach their golden wedding anniversary I've come to realize how much I've taken their presence for granted. I love them with all my heart and instinctively count on them "being there" whenever I need them. But, as I age and they age mortality suddenly comes to the forefront. And even though we share in the love of Jesus Christ--we'll be together in heaven one day--I still cherish the moments I have now! I'm endeavoring to call and visit more often then in years past, because despite all the problems or history we may have as a family I KNOW how much they love me and they know how much I love them. Thank you Lord, for giving me my parents. Bless them and keep them close to you always.

Milestone Anniversary

2006-05-25T08:59:00.000-07:00

My parents will celebrate their 50th Wedding anniversary in January. That's a milestone! Not many people make it that far anymore. My sister put out a request for gift ideas and I'm copying the plea. We're on a very tight budget with little to spare and I'm afraid a big bash will be out of the question. But, I wanted to do something heartfelt and personal for them...so they would know the family is celebrating with them in spirit, even if we can't be there in person. I mean, there's always the traditional little gifts of gold, but I was hoping for something creative that just the two of them could do. Perhaps even a little romantic? Any suggestions?

Hollywood Heros

2006-05-22T15:19:00.000-07:00

This came to me via email, and I couldn't copy the photos of the actors. But it's very interesting!

Alec Guinness (Star Wars~Bridge over the River Kwai) operated a British Royal Navy landing craft on D-Day.

James Doohan ("Scotty" on Star Trek) landed in Normandy with the U. S. Army on D-Day.

Donald Pleasance (The Great Escape) really was an R. A. F. pilot who was shot down, held prisoner and tortured by the Germans.

David Niven was a Sandhurst graduate and Lt. Colonel of the British Commandos in Normandy.

James Stewart Entered the Army Air Force as a private and worked his way to the rank of Colonel. During World War II, Stewart served as a bomber pilot, his service record crediting him with leading more than 20 missions over Germany, and taking part in hundreds of air strikes during his tour of duty.

Stewart earned the Air Medal, the Distinguished Flying Cross, France's Croix de Guerre,and 7 Battle Stars during World War II.

In peace time, Stewart continued to be an active member of the Air Force as a reservist, reaching the rank of Brigadier General before retiring in the late 1950's.

Clark Gable (Mega-Movie Star when war broke out) Although he was beyond the draft age at the time the U.S. entered WW II. Clark Gable enlisted as a private in the AAF on Aug. 12, 1942 at Los Angeles. He attended the Officers' Candidate School at Miami Beach, Fla. and graduated as a second lieutenant on Oct. 28, 1942. He then attended aerial gunnery school and in Feb. 1943 he was assigned to the 351st Bomb Group at Polebrook where flew operational missions over Europe in B-17s.

Capt. Gable returned to the U.S. in Oct. 1943 and was relieved from active duty as a major on Jun. 12, 1944 at his own request, since he was over-age for combat.

Charlton Heston was an Army Air Corps Sergeant in Kodiak.

Earnest Borgnine was a U. S. Navy Gunners Mate 1935-1945.

Charles Durning was a U. S. Army Ranger at Normandy earning a Silver Star and awarded the Purple Heart.

Charles Bronson was a tail gunner in the Army Air Corps, more specifically on B-29s in the 20th Air Force out of Guam, Tinian, and Saipan.

George C. Scott was a decorated U. S. Marine.

Eddie Albert (Green Acres TV) was awarded a Bronze Star for his heroic action as a U. S. Naval officer aiding Marines at the horrific battle on the island of Tarawa in the Pacific Nov. 1943.

Brian Keith served as a U.S. Marine rear gunner in several actions against the Japanese on Rabaul in the Pacific.

Lee Marvin was a U.S. Marine on Saipan during the Marianas campaign when he was wounded earning the Purple Heart.

John Russell: In 1942, he enlisted in the Marine Corps where he received a battlefield commission and was wounded and highly decorated for valor at Guadalcanal.

Robert Ryan was a U.S. Marine who served with the OSS in Yugoslavia.

Tyrone Power (an established movie star when Pearl Harbor was bombed) joined the US. . Marines, was a pilot flying supplies into, and wounded Marines out of, Iwo Jima and Okinawa.

Audie Murphy, little 5'5" tall 110 pound guy from Bay City, Texas who played cowboy parts?

Most decorated serviceman of WWII and earned: Medal of Honor, Distinguished Service Cross, 2 Silver Star Medals, Legion of Merit, 2 Bronze Star Medals with "V", 2 Purple Hearts, U.S. Army Outstanding Civilian Service Medal, Good Conduct Medal, 2 Distinguished Unit Emblems, American Campaign Medal, European-African-Middle Eastern Campaign Medal with One Silver Star, Four Bronze Service Stars (representing nine campaigns) and one Bronze Arrowhead (representing assault landing at Sicily and Southern France) World War II Victory Medal Army of Occupation Medal with Germany Clasp, Armed Forces Reserve Medal, Combat Infantry Badge, Marksman Badge with Rifle Bar, Expert Badge with Bayonet Bar, French Fourragere in Colors of the Croix de Guerre, French Legion of Honor, Grade of Chevalier, French Croix de Guerre With Silver Star, French Croix de Guerre with Palm, Medal of Liberated France, Belgian Croix de Guerre 1940 Palm.

So how do you feel the real heroes of the silver screen acted when compared to the hollywonks today who spray out anti-American drivel as they bite the hand that feeds them? Can you imagine these stars of yesteryear saying they hate our flag, making anti-war speeches, marching in anti-American parades and saying they hate our president? I thought not, neither did I!

The Testosterone Twins

2006-05-21T20:39:00.000-07:00

Here are the testosterone twins. J (on the left) is 16 and B (on the right with one of his "pet" reptiles) is 15. J is my son and B is my stepson. They have to share a room and it is driving me crazy! Two teenagers in one room (and stepbrothers to boot) is enough to drive General Patton into a deep depression! When my other two sons were home and there were FOUR boys and my husband in the house, I would literally "escape" to my daughter's house for an estrogen fix. I ache for those days.
But, seriously, it's a difficult world for teenagers these days. Politics, drugs, television and video game influences...dysfunctional backgrounds from single parent households. And that's just the tip of the iceberg. We should be in prayer daily for our children, that's a given. But, we should also pray for their friends, teachers, neighbors, government leaders, and that they find God's purpose in their life. Lord, I pray that you surround our children with a hedge of protection and place a hand of guidance upon them. May they know you and love you completely, and may they meet people and make friends who would do the same. Help them find the mate YOU have chosen for them in the future. Lord God, we give their future over to you...for it is beyond our capability. Help us to be the parents you desire us to be. Thank you for being the omnipotent and omnipresent God that you are. These things we pray in His holy name, Amen.