Conversations

Guess I was feeling "chatty" last night because I called my folks and talked for about an hour. Then, I called my sister and talked to her (and my niece) for another 1/2 hour. Hung up and called my daughter who was visiting with my husband and son and talked for another 1/2 hour. But you know, the conversations left me in a melancholy mood. Distance and separation has been something I've "stuffed" down for years and all the emotions are bubbling up now. Can't seem to contain them. I really have missed a lot living far from family...and I'm missing a lot now.
Guess change is difficult for me. More difficult then for the "average Joe". My sister was telling me about her friends who must take their newborn off life support today and let her go home to our Lord and Savior. My mood just became more somber. I'm always griping at the sons I have left in the house because of the HUGE messes they make and leave, and here is a family with a burden I can't even comprehend. Father God, welcome this beautiful child into your arms. We know how much she was loved by her earthly family--and it pales in comparison to your love. Help Anazarella's family see her as whole and complete as you will make her. Let them see her laughing and playing at the feet of our Savior! Grant them strength and comfort, and thank you for teaching me about love and hope.