Senior Moments

This is my 17 year old son J. Actually, all my kids' names start with J. He is the youngest of my children (not including my stepson) and I'm having a really hard time "letting go." When he graduates, he wants to move back to California. That means ALL of my children will be far away from me. But, he will be an adult and capable of making his own decisions. I pray God has a hand in each of those decisions.
I asked if he was going to go to junior college or technical school and he said, "I'm too stupid for school Mom." It just broke my heart. He has learning disabilities, compounded by the fact that my stepson is a GATE student Gifted and Talented Education so he constantly reminds J how "easy" tests are or how "simple" reading is. My husband doesn't help matters either. He's not a very positive person, he isn't a Christian, and he has always parented in a condescending manner. So, I pray that God (who J has just recently accepted) cements Himself in my son's heart and soul (in ALL my childrens' souls) and speaks softly to him. I pray He shows him the young man He sees and not the one the world sees.
He's handsome, talented, smart, funny and a precious new babe in Christ. I love you J. Have fun your senior year! Don't let life get you down.