Chemotherapy

Dad started chemotherapy yesterday, and my sisters sound absolutely wiped. I cried because I couldn't be there to at least uplift them and hold Pa's hand. The stress of being in a helpless situation is taking it's toll on me. I can't sleep, I've gained weight and my neck/back/shoulder are hurting continuously. Now, my hip hurts too. Then I think to myself, "What a wuss. Dad's going through hell and I'm complaining of headaches and pain!" I get so mad at myself. I pray everyday for a miracle cure to buy some more time with my Dad. Cancer is such an ugly word and an ugly disease!
Please pray for my Father and my Mom and siblings. This is a trying time. They found more spots of cancer (one on his liver and one in his shoulder now). We all need faith and strength and a gentle reminder that God is in control.